One Bullet At A Time

Writing one bullet at a time.
—Caleb Pirtle III

In this age of hyper-narcissism, Caleb Pirtle was that most rare of human beings: a selfless man.

His passing has left a huge hole in the writing community. Yet, he continues to speak to us. He does so through his books.

And what you find in his books is a man with an incredibly deep well.

He knew life. He knew people. He knew the nastiness and he knew the sublime. His years of talking to people and observing them comes through when he tells his stories. They are always about people and what they do and don’t do. The lies they tell and don’t tell.

Caleb’s writing was always centered around the human factor. Fiction, or non-fiction. Didn’t matter. People were at the center.

He used to say he was writing one bullet at a time. That bullet could be literal or metaphorical. And its impact depended on where it hit. And how hard. Literally or metaphorically.

He was an incredibly optimistic man. If you talked with him, as the song goes, never was heard a discouraging word, and the skies were not cloudy all day.

Yet, Caleb was no Pollyanna. There is a darkness to his Magnolia Bluff books that is not present in any of the other books I’ve read. And that might be due to the Magnolia Bluff stories being told in the first person. They are told by a person who has seen a lot of life. And a lot of it wasn’t good. Or especially nice.

I have found that third person puts distance between writer and reader. First person erases that distance. The first person story is intensely intimate.

And it is that intimacy that gives his Magnolia Bluff books such incredibly deep insights into human nature.

I find the last five lines of Death in the Absence of Rain enigmatic. I’m not sure what they mean, and I didn’t get a chance to ask Caleb. 

Graham Huston, the narrator of the story, says:

We as a people are what we bury inside of us.
I believe it with all my heart.
Don’t know about you.
But, frankly, I’ve buried about all I can bury.
I’m running out of room.

There’s an observation about people in general. Then there is the application by Graham to himself.

That is one doggone penetrating bullet.

We are what we bury inside of us.

Death in the Absence of Rain is a book about lies. Lies we tell others and lies we tell ourselves.

It’s a theme Caleb explored in Last Deadly Lie.

There is a darkness that surrounds us. All of us. Even so, Caleb chose to see what was good and positive — even if he had to rummage around in that darkness for a while to find it.

Caleb was a pantser. Pull up a blank Word doc — and start typing. The story will flow from the subconscience, through the fingers, and onto the page.

The downside to being a pantser is that there are usually no notes or outlines lying around. Which means we will never know if Graham found a way to make more room, or somehow stopped burying.

We are what we bury inside of us. 

Graham was burying a lot of crap. Most of us are.

I don’t think Caleb was.

Just a day or two before he went into the hospital, I spoke with him on the phone. He was optimistic as ever, even though he was in great pain. He was looking forward to conquering whatever the heck was the problem and getting back into the saddle.

We are what we bury inside of us.

Unlike Graham Huston, but very much like Caleb Pirtle, I hope I’m burying good stuff.

I want to end my days looking to get back into the saddle.

If you missed the Underground Authors tribute to Caleb, take a watch here: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=trjgrs0Qkwk

May we all take a life lesson from Caleb Pirtle. Write one bullet at a time. And do our darnedest to get back into the saddle.

Comments are always welcome! And until next time, happy reading!

 

CW Hawes is a playwright; award-winning poet; and a fictioneer, with a bestselling novel. He’s also an armchair philosopher, political theorist, social commentator, and traveler. He loves a good cup of tea and agrees that everything’s better with pizza.

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Whither Music and Media?

Several years ago, I participated in Brian Fatah Steele’s 7Q interview. You can read the entire interview on his website.

Question #4 was “How does music and media factor into your writing? Do you feel it plays as much an inspirational role as literature?”

Time has moved on a fair bit since I answered the question for Brian. So, I thought I’d revisit and see if anything has changed.

Music

There’s no doubt about it. I love music. One of my major disappointments is that my parents did not encourage my interest in music. Nothing I can do about that now. That’s 60+ years in the past.

I’m too old to become a good amateur instrumentalist. My hands are against me. I can still learn composition, however, and I might pursue that. I certainly enjoyed dabbling in composition 40+ years ago.

When I was a high school and college lad, I listened to music while I did my homework. I listened to a lot of music. Classical music. I love classical music. Something I have my grandmother to thank. My parents weren’t too happy with her for that.

Now, though, in my old age, I am finding that I much prefer silence to sound. It’s not that I dislike music. It’s just that I value silence more. Sound is becoming increasingly grating on my ears. Kind of like that old Simon & Garfunkel song: “Sounds of Silence”.

My last few years at work I often use earplugs because the office was just too noisy.

Today, I very rarely listen to music while writing. And without a doubt I can say music does not provide any inspiration for my stories.

I do, though, find that fiction has increased my enjoyment of music. I’m more and more listening to the structure of the music I listen to. Something I never did in my youth.

But music does feature in my fiction. It’s ubiquitous in fact. My characters like music. They listen to it. They perform it. They quote lyrics. Music is all over my fiction. It just doesn’t inspire any story ideas.

Visual Media

Visual media covers a multitude of platforms.

There is film, both large and small screen. There is digital content: YouTube, TikTok, and the like. There are video games. And let us not forget plain old static pictures.

Visual Media occupies a huge part of our lives. It is all around us. Every day and every waking hour of every day. The influence is undoubtedly profound.

While I am not into video, I do very much enjoy fine art. Paintings. Photographs. Pottery. Art glass. Architecture. 

Fine art floats my boat. Even things such as a well-designed tea pot, cup, or mug will catch my eye. Or the shape of a fine pen, or mechanical pencil. Or the color pattern.

Gazing on beauty lifts the spirits and the soul.

Art features fairly consistently in my fiction. I suppose, because like music, fine art is an expression of the human potential. A glimpse of what we can become.

My fiction, which is my art, is ultimately a voice crying in the wilderness that there is something better for us — both individually and collectively — than what we have now. And we should pursue that which is better. Never be satisfied with what we have. Because what we have is mostly not worth having. There is something better for us.

Inspiration

All in all, literature provides a large portion of my inspiration. About equal with observation of the world around me, and those gifts that come from the Muse.

Music doesn’t inspire any ideas. Nor does fine art. On rare occasions a storyline or scene from a movie or TV episode will trigger an idea.

As noted above, video is not my thing. I’d rather read a good book. Especially since political correctness and wokeness have taken over the big and small screens in such a blatant manner. Watching movies and TV just isn’t enjoyable anymore. I want to watch a good story — not propaganda.

A true artist can get his point across much more affectively with a stiletto then with a club.

The movie Little Big Man is a powerful statement regarding the collision of Native and Euro-American cultures, as well as an indictment of Euro-American culture. It is an effective use of the stiletto to get its point across.

The Graduate does the same thing with regards to societal and familial expectations, pressures, and hypocrisy. Once again, the stiletto is deadly — and for more effective than a club would’ve been.

The old DCI Tom Barnaby episodes of Midsomer Murders did the same. Tom is ordinary. Husband. Father. A good employee. Normal home life. He himself is normal. It’s the rich, the high society folk, who are sick and what’s wrong with the world. The series also took a stab at the notion of the idyllic country life versus the corrupt city. In Midsomer it’s reversed.

The stiletto is always more effective than the club. 

But today’s writers, especially those for the screen, use the club almost exclusively and are the worse for it.

I don’t know about you, but I respond better to the stiletto.

So until screenwriters and producers go back to good story writing instead of pushing propaganda, I’m reaching for a good book.

What about you? How would you answer Mr. Steele’s question? Drop your answer in the comments below.

Comments are always welcome! And until next time, happy reading!

CW Hawes is a playwright; award-winning poet; and a fictioneer, with a bestselling novel. He’s also an armchair philosopher, political theorist, social commentator, and traveler. He loves a good cup of tea and agrees that everything’s better with pizza.

If you enjoyed this post, please consider buying me a cup of tea. Thanks! PayPal.me/CWHawes 

 

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To Write Is The Thing

This past weekend, I got a big shock, a sad shock: one of my favorite indie writers, Ben Willoughby, is hanging up his pen. He’s taking down his Twitter profile and pulling his books off of Amazon. I encourage you to get his books while you can — you won’t be sorry. He’s a doggone good writer.

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For nearly 5 years, I’ve been an independent author/publisher. And I’ve had a blast. I’ve loved every day of the adventure.

However, along the way, I’ve seen writers drop out for sometimes unknown reasons. None of those writers were bestsellers, and perhaps the lack of financial reward convinced them that they had better things to do with their time. And that is a decision only they can make.

In the end, the writer himself or herself has to decide if telling stories is worth the effort or not.

In the case of Mr Willoughby, I’m very sad that there will be no more new books from him. But I have to respect his decision that his time can be spent better in other pursuits. After all it is his time and not mine.

But it is just a tad frustrating for me as a reader, when a good writer, such as Mr Willoughby, quits writing, leaving the field to writers who are much inferior. Writers who are often on the bestseller list. Which completely baffles me, by the way. How does a mediocre at best writer get people to buy his or her books by the truckload? In a world full of unfair things, that is perhaps one of the most unfair. Mr Willoughby should be on the bestseller list, and it is very sad that he is not.

For me, though, writing is the thing. I cannot imagine any other life. And at my age I have lived a life or two. I hope to heaven, I die with a pencil in my hand putting words on paper. And that after I crossover, I pick up that pencil and continue writing.

As I’ve noted before, I don’t make much money at this. Last month was the best month I’ve had in a year. I made 30 bucks and change. And there are better writers than I, who don’t even make that much. Which is a very sad commentary on those of us who are readers.

In some ways, I see myself like the old prospector in the movies panning for gold and hoping to strike it rich. If I don’t keep at it, I definitely won’t get rich.

On the other hand, is such a pittance worth all the effort? I can only answer for myself, and that answer is yes.

From 2001 to about 2013, I actively published my poetry. And I did it the traditional way, submitting to print and online magazines. I was fortunate enough to achieve a bit of renown, and to pick up an award or two, and even pick up a couple bucks.

The truth is there is no money in writing poetry. Yes, there is the exceedingly rare individual who for a short period of time is popular enough to make some money. But that popularity doesn’t last and the person fades away.

Writing poetry is truly a labor of love. You have to find satisfaction in something other than money. And for over 10 years I did. But then I felt I needed a bigger canvas on which to work, and as I was nearing retirement I wanted to live my dream of writing fiction full-time. And I am living my dream. I write full-time. I just don’t make a full-time income.

Once I realized that in order to make money at this writing gig I needed to have money, money for websites, money for bookcovers, money for various services, money for advertising, I realized that unless somebody took me under his or her wing and promoted the heck out of my work I was not ever going to get on the bestseller list. Because I just don’t have money to risk on the business end of self-publishing. I’m retired and on a fixed income.

Reality sucks, but realizing what reality is has helped me to adjust my attitude from fantasy to something more realistic. 

And I am content, at least for now, at where I am at. I don’t have money to pour into advertising, I don’t have the money to get fancy-schmansy bookcovers like the bestselling guys have, I don’t have money to pay other people to do all the stuff that I don’t want to do just so I can spend all of my time writing. I am a one man band and I have to live with that reality.

And I am okay with it.

But if other writers do not want to put up with the crap and decide that they have other things they would rather do then spend hours producing work that virtually no one buys — I cannot blame them for leaving writing behind. After all who wants to do a thankless job forever, especially if you have other things on your bucket list that you want to do?

I am just sorry to see the good ones go, because that leaves me just a little bit poorer.

I wish Mr Willoughby well. I am thankful that I got to know him, that I have his books on my Kindle app, and that I can reread them at my leisure.

Now you can do him a favor by buying his books and giving him a nice goodbye present. You won’t be sorry. He’ll be gone and you will still have his wonderful books.

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Comments are always welcome! And until next time, happy reading!

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One Writer’s Story

Tomorrow (October 2nd) is my birthday. I’ll be 67. Usually I like to spend the day quietly; reflecting on my life, and thinking about what I’d like to do in the next year. Eating some good food and maybe a homemade apple pie does help the thinking process. 🙂

As part of that life reflection process, I thought I’d tell y’all a bit of my life as it pertains to writing. So sit back and enjoy one writer’s story.

I was born into a lower middle-class family. The first of four children and the first grandchild on my dad’s side of the family. Because my mom had a very hard life growing up, she made sure I and my siblings had more than what she had when she was growing up. Back in the 60s, she was the only mom working outside of the home that I was aware of.

Back then there was no such thing as white privilege, because there were no minorities in my world. There was only economic privilege: the haves and the have-nots. And compared to my friends, I was one of the have-nots. Even with my mother working and trying to give us all the things she never got. I did not know privilege growing up. I was bullied and made fun of throughout my school years. I was awkward around people and considered a dweeb by my peers.

Being un-privileged and an outsider, meant I grew up without many friends, and was often rather lonely. To fill in all the alone time, I developed a very active imagination. Which has served me well as a writer.

Ever since I can remember I was a reader. My mom wasn’t a good reader, but she made sure I never lacked for books. There was always money for me to buy books from the Weekly Reader and the Scholastic Book Club at school.

Among the first books I remember reading were Scrambled Eggs Super by Dr Seuss; Danny and the Dinosaur by Syd Hoff; Sherlock Holmes; Edgar Allan Poe; Saki; Groff Conklin’s Omnibus of Science Fiction; Men, Martians and Machines by Eric Frank Russell; Costigan’s Needle by Jerry Sohl; and Tomorrow and Tomorrow by Hunt Collins (aka Evan Hunter, aka Ed McBain). Notice the adult books in the mix. They were courtesy of the books my uncles left behind, which I found at my grandparents’s house.

My parents also bought a set of World Book Encyclopedias, and I remember spending hours reading them.

I loved books. And still do. I think I can honestly say, they have been my best friends.

And because of my love for books, ever since I can remember I wanted to be a writer. I loved books so much, I wanted to write them.

In spite of my mom’s encouragement to read, neither she nor my dad were at all encouraging of my interest in writing. Nevertheless, they didn’t stop me from getting subscriptions to The Writer and Writer’s Digest when I was in junior high. I suppose they thought my interest in writing was a passing fancy and their steady encouragement for me to pursue a “real career” would eventually win the day. Sad to say, it did for most of my life.

The first thing I remember writing was a pastiche of Jules Verne’s From Earth To The Moon. Instead of the Moon, my spaceship went to Mars. I suppose I was somewhere around eight years old at the time.

The next thing I recall writing was a play while in my 11th grade drama class. The teacher had the class perform it, and I suppose I could call that my first “publishing credit”.

The first piece of writing I had accepted by an editor was a poem in a horror fanzine called The Diversifier. That was around 1971. And poetry remained my sole published output until 2014.

I wrote a few short stories, an attempt at a children’s book, and a novel during those decades, all of which earned me some very fine rejection slips. Very fine, indeed.

It was, though, my poetry that gained me a modicum of fame in the late 1990s and early 2000s. No money. There is no money in poetry writing. None whatsoever. If one is a poet, one must find satisfaction in something other than money. Success must be defined other than monetarily.

Which is why I’m probably satisfied with the pittance I make off my novels, novellas, and short stories. Sure, I’d like to make thousands of dollars every month instead of $10, $20, or $30. But for me, thanks to poetry, success isn’t measured solely by a piece of paper with some dead guy’s mug on it.

At the height of my poetry success, I quit. I was nearing retirement age and, on one of those birthday meditations, decided I wanted to pursue writing fiction for the rest of my life. And so I quit writing poems and started writing novels.

The going was difficult, at first, until I found a writing method that worked for me. And when I did, the words just began to flow.

The Rocheport Saga was first (some 2200+ handwritten pages — it was the guinea pig), along with Do One Thing For Me. Those two were followed by Trio in Death-Sharp Minor, and a completely re-written Festival Of Death (the original dates from 1989), and The Moscow Affair.

My first four books were published in November 2014. I was now an independent author-publisher. And I haven’t looked back. To date I have 25 published books, with number 26 coming out Halloween week.

I retired in January 2015 and have been writing full-time and learning about publishing ever since.

Life is indeed good. I’m living a dream first expressed over 60 years ago. And I’m feeling good.

I’m a very happy man, even without making the money Patterson, or King, or Cussler make. Or even that which my fellow indie authors, such as Mark Dawson, Michael Anderle, TS Paul, PF Ford, or Patty Jansen, make.

What matters is I’m writing. And that’s all that matters.

Comments are always welcome! And until next time, happy reading!

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Seventeen Days…

…and counting! In 17 days the moving van will be here and a new adventure begins. For those of you who do not know, my wife and I are relocating to Houston, Texas.

She’s retiring on the 17th. She’s put in her time working for the man and is now looking forward to spending her days painting. And if we plan it right, she’ll make some money doing so. That, however, requires a business plan and she hasn’t gotten that far. Yet.

For me, though, all of the packing and sorting is basically a pain in the… I can’t focus! Too much of my brain’s RAM is filled up with wrapping paper, bubblewrap, and boxes.

My books are boxed. My paper (most of it, anyway) is boxed. Most of my pens are packed away. File drawers are empty and the contents packed in boxes.

In the chaos of moving, my writing world is upside down. And that is giving my creative brain conniption fits.

I want to write! And it seems all I’m getting done is an ever growing To-Do List.

Yes, I know: this, too, shall pass. But in the meantime, my brain is stamping its little foot and it’s not being very nice about the forced vacay.

It keeps trying to sidetracked me with plot ideas, story snippets, intriguing first lines — and boy are they tempting. After all, I could just pay the movers to pack everything. Right?

Every time I start thinking along those lines, my wallet throws a fit. And it has a much bigger voice.

What I’ve done to solve this little dilemma, is to type up a short story I wrote some time back. Typing and editing isn’t writing. And it isn’t very creative, but at least my brain now has something to do.

What I have managed to sneak in is time to read. I have discovered a new (to me) author. Richard Schwindt, out of Kingston, Ontario, Canada. He is delightfully humorous, writes about the adventures of very interesting characters, and does so with a very deft pen.

He also writes self-help non-fiction. He’s a semi-retired social worker and therapist.

Take a look at his Amazon page for some truly fab reads. I provided the link to his Amazon.ca author page, as his Amazon.com page doesn’t contain all of his oeuvre.

I’ve recently read (links are to amazon.com):

Herkimer’s Nose

Scarborough: Confidential

Sioux Lookout: Confidential

Kingston: Confidential

All four books are paranormal mysteries with intriguing occult detectives. They are only $.99 for the summer. Do pick them up. Schwindt is a delightful writer.

Now back to packing.

Comments are always welcome. And until next time, happy reading!

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Spice In The Writer’s Life

Today, the Big 5 Publishers want writers to write one thing. If I write private detective murder mysteries, that’s all the Big 5 want me to write. Why? Because they want a known commodity in their stable. Especially if my mysteries sell.

For a very long time now, writers have gotten around that particular publisher restriction by using pen names. Or by going to a different publisher. Although as publishing houses merge, that option is vanishing.

Of course, the independent author/publisher has no such constraints and can publish whatever he or she wants. Although “conventional” wisdom argues that it’s easier to create a “brand” if one publishes only in one genre. I think branding is hogwash, but that’s a subject for another post.

The question is are there multi-genre authors? And the answer is a resounding — YES! In fact, there have pretty much always been multi-genre authors.

Who are some of these writers? Let’s name a few:

H.G. Wells, Georgette Heyer, Iain [M] Banks, Sir Arthur Conan Doyle, Ken Follett, Stephen King, Roald Dahl, Arthur Ransome, Isaac Asimov, Dan Simmons, Anthony Trollope, Doris Lessing, George Orwell, Margaret Atwood, Nora Roberts/JD Robb, John Updike, Walter Tevis, Jerome Charyn, Ardath Mayhar, Lucius Annaeus Seneca

And the list goes on.

So why do writers write in more than one genre? I can only answer for myself. The reason I write in more than one genre is so that I don’t get bored.

Variety, as they say, is the spice of life. It shakes things up, it broadens our horizons, gives us a larger perspective on life.

I have a wide range of interests. My reading reflects that range and I talked about that last week. And so does my writing. Because I basically write what I like to read.

Currently, I write private detective mysteries, post-apocalyptic fiction, dieselpunk alternative history action/adventure, and horror (both psychological and supernatural). In the future, I have plans for writing space opera, historical science fiction novels, cozy mysteries, fantasy, and non-fiction, as well as more of the above.

Of course the rub comes when we talk about marketing, because not all readers are the same. Some just devour romances, or mysteries, or mainstream novels. Others do read more than one genre. So with readers having their expectations and writers wanting to do their thing, what’s the answer?

For myself, I have to write what I’m interested in and what I like to read. I also have to take into consideration that I rapidly lose interest if I have to do the same thing over and over again. I love Tina and Harry in the Justinia Wright mystery series, but if I only wrote about them I’d soon get bored.

And then there is the idea machine. It never stops and is constantly stimulated by everything going on around me. Just the other day, while preparing lunch, I got an idea for a post-apocalyptic novel and a forbidden love novel. That happens all the time. Do I throw those ideas away? No. I save them and often sketch out the idea so I don’t forget it. Because even though at present I have four projects I’m working on, I won’t always have those four projects and I’ll want to start a new one.

Hopefully my readers will like all that I write because they like my style and relate to my worldview. Hopefully. However, I realize a good many will not. And that’s okay.

Another reason writers might write in more than one genre is to capture a larger share of readers. If I write mysteries and horror and science fiction, I have three large reader audiences, as well as those who might cross over. More readers, potentially means more money. And most writers write because they want to tell stories for a living.

Please take a look at my novels page and see the range of what I write. Hopefully, if you haven’t already, you’ll find something to pique your interest. And hopefully in the next year or two some of the other ideas that are in the cooker will be ready to serve up for readers’s enjoyment.

Lawrence Block writes mysteries and thrillers. But over the years he’s begun and ended many series. He says all he can through a character and moves on to a new one. Frustrating as it is for me the reader, it’s what Block has to do to stay fresh in his chosen genre. Which really isn’t any different than a writer who writes in two or more genres or simply switches genres.

Let me know if you read more than one genre and know of authors who write in more than one. Your comments are always welcome! And until next time, happy reading!

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